W H I T E * E L E P H A N T

I would say that my current struggle is balancing elements of my life… but it probably wouldn’t be the case. I can balance work, fun, friends and family, even some rest.

My problem is that there is not enough quiet time to find my energy again. As an introvert, I used to think that it was being social and around people which drained me but in fact this is not always the case. It is certain types of people seem to cause this problem more than others and I can only be around these people for short amounts of time before I feel tired, wanting some quiet time with my thoughts.

I’m yet to find a solution.

Beauty haul


Above is one of my recent beauty product hauls which contains some items I have been impressed with.

First stop - lashes! I haven’t used these yet as like to save them for a specific look or occassion but I stocked up on Eylure lashes. It’s been so long since I bought any I missed their rebrand. I love the typography on this packaging and new branding identity. image

Next up are these watercolour blushers which I have been eyeing up for some time now. I chose pink shades ‘Acid’ and ‘Cherub’.


The wonderful thing about them is that they apply just like a watercolour and you can add layers to make them as bright or a subtle as you desire. Below are swatches applied for one layer:


Now I’d like to talk about this brow box in ‘Brown Sugar’ from Urban Decay. If you are looking for a brow product suitable for travel then I would highly recommend it. The box is so tiny but yet there are two layers containing tweezers and brushes, two shades of brow powder and brow finishing wax.


I have bought several Too Faced products recently, so will talk about my favourites in another post.

Finally, I have been trying to expand my horizons and get out of my lipstick comfort zone… so I dived right in with a black Barry M ‘lip paint’. Also featured in the below are Urban Decay brow kit and three matte shades from the Lorac Unzipped eye palette (undercover, unconditional and unbridled)



Being a manager is both challenging and rewarding. Every day I meet new challenges either with new work problems or relating to people management. I’m most rewarded when my staff learn new tasks or show signs of progression. I love meeting a challenge which requires hard work but being able to achieve it as a team.

Leadership is:

  • Solving problems
  • Protecting those you are leading
  • Installing values / setting a good example
  • Building trust
  • Motivating others
  • Developing teamwork
  • Nurturing talent
  • Making decisions and accepting responsibility for them
  • Learning from mistakes
  • Sharing knowledge
  • Delegation

I have just started working towards a new goal which will end a small chapter of my working career. In some ways I feel this is my last challenge in my current role. I’m not sure yet of the direction of the next chapter but I’m excited about it.

When feeling drained I try to find inspiration from nature. Here are a few photos I took in my garden this weekend.

One of my favourite roses. I love the mix of pink and yellow tones.

Bees on the beans

Colour mix

50 Questions You've Never Been Asked

1. What's your favorite candle scent?
2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister?
3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother?
4. How old do you think you'll be when you get married?
5. Do you know a hoarder?
6. Can you do a split?
7. How old were you when you learned how to ride a bike?
8. How many oceans have you swam in?
9. How many countries have you been to?
10. Is anyone in your family in the army?
11. What would you name your daughter if you had one?
12. What would you name your son if you had one?
13. What's the worst grade you got on a test?
14. What was your favorite TV show when you were a child?
15. What did you dress up as on Halloween when you were eight?
16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series?
17. Would you rather have an American accent or a British accent?
18. Did your mother go to college?
19. Are your grandparents still married?
20. Have you ever taken karate lessons?
21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is?
22. What's the first amusement park you've been to?
23. What language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in?
24. Do you spell the color as grey or gray?
25. Is your father bald?
26. Do you know triplets?
27. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook?
28. Have you ever had Indian food?
29. What's the name of your favorite restaurant?
30. Have you ever been to Olive Garden?
31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores (Costco, BJ's, etc.)?
32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender?
33. If you have a nickname, what is it?
34. Who's your favorite person in the world?
35. Would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs?
36. Can you whistle?
37. Do you sleep with a nightlight?
38. Do you eat breakfast every morning?
39. Do you take any pills or medication daily?
40. What medical conditions do you have?
41. How many times have you been to the hospital?
42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo?
43. Where do you buy your jeans?
44. What's the last compliment you got?
45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning?
46. What flavor tea do you enjoy?
47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own?
48. What religion will you raise your children to practice?
49. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn't real?
50. Why do you have a tumblr?
Tagged: #meme

Wish List: Shadow boxes

1. by Timeless Curiosities  2. by CherryBlossomTears  3. by Northwoodscabin  4 & 5. by jennieshox

Wish List: Cosmetics

After some time away I’ve been getting back into cosmetics lately. Here are a few products I’m eager to try.

I have wanted a Sugarpill palette for the longest time and shipping costs always put me off taking the plunge, but it still remains on my list.

The idea of a ‘watercolour’ blusher really appeals to me and reading the reviews of this Daniel Sandler product it seems versatile and easy to apply.

One of the things which is lacking in my collection is brow products. I’ve heard great things about Dipbrow by Anastasia Beverly Hills and this Urban Decay brow kit is too cute!

Too Faced have a series of ‘melted’ lipstick, which hopefully is somewhere in between a lipstick and a lipgloss.I also adore the packaging design and thought that has gone into the branding.

And finally this little palette of mattes from Tarte has caught my eye - I don’t have enough mattes in my collection as like a magpie I am drawn to the shiny things. However, I think they are more suitable for office wear, so need to stock up.

Some of my drawings from my holiday in Austria.

1. Views from the hotel

2. At the top of Mt Siriuskogl - viewing tower and animals

2014 so far

It’s been a long time since I updated in here.

My life kind of turned upside down several months ago when my company announced they were closing our office and relocating. I took the challenge of training a new team and moving the department. While I was expecting it to be tough, nothing could have really prepared me for the difficulty of the first two months. The most difficult part was absorbing the pressure of a partially trained team, continuing to train them whilst my own work load was increased, and having to drive 140 miles a day. I’ve lived at work, in my car or in hotel rooms for the last 4 months. It’s been exhausting but I am proud of my achievements and self motivation. I think I am a stronger person having gone through this and I’ve learned a lot along the way. There was a point where I almost felt defeated, but luckily I was blessed to have a supportive person become a huge part of my life.

I visited Austria for my birthday a month ago. This was a much needed break. I lacked sleep on this holiday but I did get exercise, culture and a change in routine. More recently I have renewed my interest in makeup, which I will write about soon.

I’ve been really missing blogging and documenting though, need to get back into that habit and I have a lot to share (especially from my holiday) despite work taking over this year.

My walls are crumbling

Growth, decay and transformation

So I did this thing here

Name: Eleanor
Western Star Sign: Gemini - The Twins
Chinese Zodiac (Animal):
Ox - The Logical
Western Element:  Air - Thought
Chinese Element: Wood - Mù
Planet: Mercury - Inconstant
Yin-Yang Symbol: Yin
Celtic Druid Zodiac: Ash Tree - The Ambitious

Birthstone: Pearl - Integrity
Divine Number: 1 - The Leader
Season: Spring
Divine Color: Cream - The Competitive
Day of the Week: Sunday

Tagged: #meme

Send me a Moomin character!

Moomintroll: Who is your closest friend?
Snorkmaiden: Do you daydream often? What about?
Moominpappa: Are you spontaneous?
Moominmamma: Are you responsible?
Snufkin: Describe your ideal trip.
The Joxter: What is the laziest thing you’ve ever done?
The Mymble: Describe three ways to win your heart.
The Mymble’s Daughter: Do you get along with your family?
Little My: Can you keep secrets?
Hodgkins: What is your greatest achievement? Your greatest dream?
The Muddler: Do you collect anything?
Sniff: What is your most prized possession?
The Hemulen: Tell us about one thing that fascinates you.
The Fillyjonk: What are some of your pet peeves?
The Groke: Do you often feel misunderstood?
Misabel: What is the meanest thing anyone has ever said to/about you?
Sorry-oo: Have you ever tried too hard fit in?
The Hobgoblin: If you could have anything you wanted (material or otherwise), what would you wish for?
Ninny: Name five things that never fail to cheer you up.
Too-ticky: Share an important piece of advice.

HAPPY 2014

2013 was an important year for me in terms of personal growth. I have really started to become more comfortable in myself and by the end of it I’ve realised that I have lost some of the shyness which has crippled me my whole life. I’ve gained some self confidence and my style has also matured. It was also the year that exercise became an important part of my life. Previously my lazy tendencies always got the better of me but now exercise has become part of who I am. It’s strengthened my mind as well as my body. I completed a 10k charity run in June which is something I never thought I was capable of.

Throughout this ‘personal growth’ it hasn’t always been easy. There have been times when the changes have been painful, or even felt overwhelming and I’ve reverted back to my former self for a few days.

Highlights of the year included: going to a Muse gig, travel - visiting Majorca and Egypt, Cluedo night, days out with friends/family and nights out with my colleagues. I’ve been blessed to have such wonderful people in my life to share these good times with.

In summary, 2013 was mostly positive for me and I’m excited to see what I can achieve in 2014. As well as some life changing decisions I will have to make, my main goals for 2014 are to become more organised at home, make use of my creative abilities more and continue to grow in confidence.

2013 music part 5